i want her hair.

boys are so fucking immature.

tough cookies.

Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.
- Mohandas Gandhi

there are a lot of people in my life that i think are strong and can handle anything that comes at them. but there are three people who i really look up to and admire for dealing with so many things in their lives and overcoming everything that has come at them. they are definitely the three strongest women i know.

my mom - my mommy is definitely THE strongest people i know. she has gone through hell and back over things i can't even imagine going through myself. but she has done everything she possibly can to make sure my siblings and i are happy and healthy and would do anything for the five of us. we have gotten so much closer these past few years and i am so lucky to have her as a best friend and a mom.

kimmy king - i know she hates when people call her kimmy. but she has been through more than i can imagine and is still just as out-going and confident than ever. she has dealt with stupid boys, crazy girls, and has made one of the hardest decisions of her life all before she even turned 19, and i admire her soo much for this. i can go to her about anything and know she will be completely, totally blunt and honest, and i think she is so strong because of that.

cassidy amy vansolkema - even though this amazing girl is two years younger than me, she has been through sooo much. i give her so much credit for being so strong and never letting anything get under her skin or affect her. she's been through everything from boy issues to family issues, so when i have a problem, i know i can go to her for help and she will get me through anything. even though she lives so far away, i know she's always a call away to talk, and am so lucky to have such a strong girl in my life.



4:38 am

it's stupid nights like these i wish i didn't think so much and had an endless supply of nyquil. or someone to talk to. someone who won't judge or get mad or assume; someone who will just sit there and listen to all of my problems. or i wish someone would notice something is wrong, and just ask if things are okay. it sounds like a typical teenage girl comment, but it really does suck when everything is going against you. you feel helpless and sad and mad. you just wish you could turn everything around, but you can't. it sucksss. so here i am, at 4:38 am, up watching infomercials, thinking too much.

goodbyes.

why are goodbyes so damn hard? you know you'll see the person again, but just the fact that it won't be for a while just sucks. especially when they helped your summer start off with a bang. who knew coloring hair, tie-dying shirts, painting nails, and just laying out would be this fun? the rest of this summer is going to SUCK without you. hope to see you super super super soon. love you cass!

people.

it's always nice when people show their true colors and show who they really are and what kind of friend they are. there are those who move away but you can still stay super close, those who have been your best friend since day one, and those who say they'll be there and just leave.

for all of those who have been there for me, i wanted to say thank you. it means a lot to me to always have you there. and to those who left, you suck.